my two mom (mother in law)'s cancer scan came back today clean!! so fucking relieved...

it means we can finally get serious about finding a place of our own and move on outta here (and not feel bad doing so). we've been staying with his parents to help out while she was going through cancer treatment for the past years and it's really taken a toll on us mentally/spiritually. it's been good for 2mom no doubt, and it's been good for us money-wise... but, goddam it has not been easy. i'm just thankful for the way it's finally turning around. it was looking so fucking grim for so long. last summer was just horrible with no end in sight. it's been a stressful time to say the least and i could really just use some time with joey and the cats again - just us, in our own little heaven - no bullshit from two parental figures who hold all the cards. so desperately looking forward to getting back to our own bullshit. that sounds so unbelievably wonderful...

just sitting here... letting the relief wash over me. feels so great to not be thinking about impending death and disease and how to accept the shit life throws at you. thank you for this, life.

'til next time, dland~

1:15 p.m. - Tuesday, Jul. 03, 2018